Kagerou seems to suffer from a lack of identity. He doesn't seem to know what he's here for or what it is he should be doing. There's a belief there that he's only good for one purpose and since he cannot fulfill that purpose here in Haven, he's good for nothing whatsoever. Being as young as he is, in comparison to those from his home world, Kagerou doesn't seem to have a good feel for the world in general yet, which definitely plays into this sense of 'one purpose' that he has. He doesn't seem to understand that his skills could be useful to others and that he could just as easily teach individuals here in Haven just like he would have done back in his home world. Encouragement to offer his services to others has been given and I am hoping that he will start to open a bit more to those he's close to here in Haven once he starts to settle into himself more.
New: Because of some bad experiences he's had over the past few weeks, Kagerou is very weary to trust any of the Firstforged and his trust towards others in general seems weary. I'm worried about him; especially when he opts to completely close himself off rather than actually discuss what's going on. It's as if he doesn't think he matters in the least. (Actually, he has implied as much but I refuse to let him continue to believe that.) I've been trying to keep a close eye on him, just to make sure he's doing alright. I can only do so much though. Kagerou himself needs to keep himself moving forward.
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Karrie is something of a unique human. What's she's been through, I'm not certain I fully understand but I know that it has made things extremely difficult for her when it comes to coping. There's a darkness haunting her and while I think there may be ways to help her get past it, I worry that it may cause more harm than good to her in the beginning should that route be taken.
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Ventus is a very compassionate young man. He cares quite a bit for those around him and takes it to heart when something bad happens--as seen with the "Glyphless" individuals that were here in Haven not too long ago. His heart is definitely in the right place but he weighs himself down at times though he still seems so young. Allowing him to express his thoughts and feelings, I think, is the best option; he seems to take everything into consideration when we talk as well which is a good sign.
New: Ventus seems to be getting along fairly well here in Haven. Despite some instances, his good disposition and outlook hasn't wavered too much.
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Blurr is one of those individuals who's death(?) in his home universe haunts him even here in Haven. He's very hard working despite it, though I worry he's bordering the same sort of overworked state that Ultra Magnus is. Despite being a speedster, I feel that Blurr needs to learn to slow down a bit before he really burns himself out and I also feel that he really needs to talk more about what went on back in his home universe and what's gone on here. (Like the events concerning the pictures he drew and the chaos that followed.) Keeping things locked up isn't going to do him any good.
New: With recent disappearances and deaths, my..own included, I worry that Blurr might be holding a lot in. He tries to carry so much on his own that I'm worried he's going to buckle under the pressure one of these days and not know how to pull himself back together. He's another one that I've been trying to keep a close eye on lately.
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If there is one thing I have discovered since arriving here in Haven, it's that Starscream is one bot that seems to have similar qualities no matter what the universe. This particular seeker tends to dance around subjects concerning his well being whenever he can, generally taking a more defensive position and attempting to turn things around on others. When his relationship with Jetfire is mentioned he gets especially defensive and I'm curious to know more about the relationship between them. I worry that Starscream's attitude will end up getting him in serious trouble sometime though, at the core, I know he is a decent mech.
New: Another that I have not spoken to in quite some time.
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Another of my comrades from the Lost Light. Drift seems to feel that he has a lot to prove and that he's not good enough in a lot of cases. He carries a heavy weight considering his past and he will not allow himself to let go of it, which I think makes it all the worse for him. I haven't gotten to speak to him all that much but I will be checking in with him to make sure he's doing alright, especially with the recent events concerning the Glyphless. I worry that his death may have caused even more trauma than he's letting on.
New: Drift and I have not spoken in quite some time. I'm hoping that with Perceptor's return that he might be doing better at least.
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It was a bit surprising to arrive here in Haven and find several mechs that I had worked with back home, Fortress Maximus being among them. While our initial meeting and first session did not go well in the least, something I regret greatly, we have talked since though it has not been in the form of a session. From what I've been able to gather, Overlord is here in Haven and it's causing a lot of distress for Fortress Maximus, the memories haunting him even worse than they had back on the Lost Light. I am doing my best to reconnect with him because, like with Dead End, I fear I'm a bit too personally invested in Fortress Maximus well being but I can't help but worry about him given what he's gone through in the past.
New: Fort Max continues to be one of the harder individuals to get through to but he has shown improvement, even if he doesn't think he has. He's more aware of his temper when it shows itself and can even stop himself from lashing out, which is a very good sign. His confidence is completely shot though and I'm doing what I can to help him piece it back together. It's a slow process but we have come to the agreement that he'll check in with me when he can, just to keep me updated on how he is. I'm not..thrilled that he's taken up residence in the junk pile and that's something else I'm going to work on changing.
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If there was ever a mech that attempted to bear just as much weight as Optimus Prime himself, it would be Ultra Magnus. I fear that our commander may be taxing himself well past his limits, carrying the weight of everyone he feels that he is responsible for. He's stubborn, to a fault at times, and I believe his drive to do all of this on his own is going to cause a lot of issues for him. His sense of duty is admirable but I think it's also a huge fault for him, Ultra Magnus unable to really give himself time to stop and heal when something happens to effect him. He keeps himself closed off from others, though I have been able to get him to talk about more personal things, and he overworks himself on a regular basis. I believe that Magnus has a lot of guilt festering inside of him in regards to things that he generally won't talk about or let himself come to terms with and, while I'm fairly certain he won't stop in on his own much, I will be making a point to check in with him on a regular basis.
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Another of my former patients whom I found here in Haven upon arrival, Whirl is the same as ever. Just when I think progress has been made we end up two step backwards and, I must admit, this time it is in part to me losing my temper with him. I just recently began to speak to him again after he contacted me regarding an incident that happened at my office and I hope to be able to get him back in the door at some point. His state of mind seems to have become even more unpredictable since his arrival here in Haven and I worry that Whirl is only going to continue to get himself into trouble whenever he can just out of a need for some sort of thril.
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Wing is one of the more interesting individuals that I've ever had the chance to speak with. He and Drift share an interesting history, though his story ends far before Drift became a Wrecker all that time ago. He arrived here in Haven at the moment of his death back in our real universe and, after a recent talk with him, it's clear the moment is one that still grips him tightly. Wing seems to have a positive outlook on things, despite this, very willing to make good use of this second chance he's been given but there is a lot of darkness lingering there, haunting him because of that uncertainty of 'why'. He seems to be questioning a lot of what he believes in and carries a weight from what he considers to be a failure--being the fight he was killed in. I would like to speak with him more and try to help him come to terms with it all, if possible. A part of me wonders if perhaps sitting down with both Wing and Drift would be a good approach to healing for them both.
New: Another individual that I have not spoken to in quite some time. Like Drift, I hope he's doing alright given he does have others to keep close to but I'm still worried about his overall state of being.
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Dead End is one of the more interesting patients that I've had in a long time. Due to exposure to a substance he referred to as "Dark Energon", Dead End can no longer survive on Energon like the rest of us. He requires power cores in order to keep functioning, making him something on a cannibal in regards to other Cybertronians. Because of this, he isn't very easily accepted by others and it's because of this lack of interactions and support that I believe his outlook on things has become so negative and bleak constantly. I may have let myself get in a bit too deep with this particular patient, offering to allow him to feed off my own power core when he needs energy, something which steps out of a professional realm without a doubt. Underneath the bleak attitude though is a mech I believe has a truly good spark and with support I believe Dead End could find his place here in Haven. (The question is, will others give him a chance or just assume the worst?)
New: No longer seeing Dead End as a aptient because of a more...personal relationship between us.
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I was actually quite surprised when Perceptor came to me for a session. He is one of the individuals that I could never convince to sit down with me for a chat back on the Lost Light so I was glad to find that he was more willing here in Haven. I wasn't at all surprised to learn that Perceptor perceives that events that transpired with the Wreckers back home as something negative in a way, though given the end result of it all I don't blame him for the most part, and he seems rather convinced that he was not appreciated in the least. There is a distinct lack of self worth in the scientist and I would like to see that improve if I can convince him to keep speaking with me on a semi-regular basis. Given the somewhat shared past we have, I hope it will make it easier for me to speak with him about events that transpired and shed some new light on them for him. There's a lot that he holds in as well, though nowhere near as bad Red Alert was, and I hope to get him to open up a bit more over time as well.
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Another new patient of mine and quite an interesting one, if I'm going to be honest. I hadn't interacted much with any of the individuals from Barricades home universe so that in itself was interesting to me but what's even more interesting is that fact that, prior to being in Haven, Barricade has been in two other 'hubs' similar to it. He seems to prefer life jumping from hub to hub to the world he left behind and given what he told me about it I can't really blame him. He's a very unique individual and I think, if more of the residents of Haven gave him their trust, he could be quite the asset to the world that we are building here. I hope to continue speaking with him on a regular basis and help him in whatever way I can.
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